Easy Like Sunday Morning

I am...tired.

Its almost seven am on Sunday and I've been up for...a lot of hours. I should sleep soon...but Jeff and Sam are sleeping...and I'm as alone as I get these days.

I have started sculpting again...I love creating something with just my hands and the clay. I'm constantly amazed at what I'm able to do. But then, I've always said I had talented hands. The rest of me...I dunno. ;)

The cat from next door is back again...I swear hie's stalking me. Not too keen on Sam though. This could be because, when ever she sees hym, she squeals with delight and points. I don't think its the pointing that's bothering him though...

We've been talking about getting a cat since December...and if we can ever get this place tidied up, so we don't run the risk of losing the poor little thing forever, we're going to do it. Having a pet around helped me immensely in Norwich and I think it'll be a good thing here. Besides, I miss having a fuzzy thing around. Sam doesn't count. *grin*

I'm trying to shake this melancholia...I refuse to dip into depression again...there's far too much I need to get done. Of course...asking Mum and Mikeo for a loan, to get the car unmangled didn't help me my mood at all...I feel like such a failure. Like, I can't even manage our finances well enough without help from my mommy.

And, I don't want them to think I'm mooching or looking for a handout or...anything along those lines. Though, I know I can't control what anyone but myself thinks.

I think the fact that we gave them a firm date, when the payback will start, is going to help a lot. Not help persuade them to give us money, 'cause if they can afford to, they will. But, maybe to help them feel better about it...if its even an issue, 'cause really, I just can't ask my mother if she thinks I'm a deadbeat.

I think it has definitely helped us feel better. Or...me at least. Jeff and I seem to be leaving the subject alone for the time being.

We do that...let a subject sit in the corner of the room and ignore it, loudly. I believe we're getting better about bringing things up though...and we're *absolutely* getting better about knowing when to leave stuff *alone* for a while.

Easy Like Sunday Morning

I am...tired.

Its almost seven am on Sunday and I've been up for...a lot of hours. I should sleep soon...but Jeff and Sam are sleeping...and I'm as alone as I get these days.

I have started sculpting again...I love creating something with just my hands and the clay. I'm constantly amazed at what I'm able to do. But then, I've always said I had talented hands. The rest of me...I dunno. ;)

The cat from next door is back again...I swear hie's stalking me. Not too keen on Sam though. This could be because, when ever she sees hym, she squeals with delight and points. I don't think its the pointing that's bothering him though...

We've been talking about getting a cat since December...and if we can ever get this place tidied up, so we don't run the risk of losing the poor little thing forever, we're going to do it. Having a pet around helped me immensely in Norwich and I think it'll be a good thing here. Besides, I miss having a fuzzy thing around. Sam doesn't count. *grin*

I'm trying to shake this melancholia...I refuse to dip into depression again...there's far too much I need to get done. Of course...asking Mum and Mikeo for a loan, to get the car unmangled didn't help me my mood at all...I feel like such a failure. Like, I can't even manage our finances well enough without help from my mommy.

And, I don't want them to think I'm mooching or looking for a handout or...anything along those lines. Though, I know I can't control what anyone but myself thinks.

I think the fact that we gave them a firm date, when the payback will start, is going to help a lot. Not help persuade them to give us money, 'cause if they can afford to, they will. But, maybe to help them feel better about it...if its even an issue, 'cause really, I just can't ask my mother if she thinks I'm a deadbeat.

I think it has definitely helped us feel better. Or...me at least. Jeff and I seem to be leaving the subject alone for the time being.

We do that...let a subject sit in the corner of the room and ignore it, loudly. I believe we're getting better about bringing things up though...and we're *absolutely* getting better about knowing when to leave stuff *alone* for a while.